I'm trying to come up with something to say something to write.

Trying to find my fire in an sea of ice.

 

 

For worse // Alex

As usual here I am unable to sleep. Thinking and dreaming of fame and fortune. Envy is a bad trip that i can't resist. 

 

 

I should really upload more often. Sorry about that.

Yeah, Never went to Copenhagen. I want to go to London so so badly. Can't stand it. It's driving me crazy. But I do get the heats to travel a lot. My dream place is and will always be Tokyo but London is easier so get to. Cheaper. A lot more obtainable. Oh London. Invite me. // Alex

So many months drifted by, sorry. I realised that I need a real break from life. It's not because my life is bad or anything right now, it's great actually. But still, I think I need to get away from this country. Perhaps Copenhagen will do, I hope so, I need it. Or I just need a job, kind of the same thing for me. Will you give me one? I'm a hard working quick learner that will do my best and a little more. So will you?

// Alex

Wow, last year went by like a flash, so many things happend. I've been through hell and barely made it back but I think I'm on the right track now. 
This year, will be what I hope a good one, been really good so far. It's looking bright for my future at the moment. 

// R

So I've been busy... I noticed that seven days after my 21 birthday I wrote that I hate everything and I have really no idea why I wrote that. But yeah, I went to a Halloween party or "sittning" as we say in Lund. It was a lot of fun, I love love love halloween and maquerades! I love to try new costumes and I wish that every party would be masquerade themed so I could do every idea I got! I was a evil fairy/dark fairy and I think it was the best idea I could ever come up with! I'll post a pic at the end of what I looked like.

After that it was november and I moved from my crappy corridor to an apartment with my friend. It's so good to have a clean nice kitchen and bathroom. AND I GOT A BATHTUB. Best thing ever. And I love my room. My family came down to help me move and they brought me a sofa, my 120cm bed, a new cabinet. Well the cabinet aint new it's from the 1940 but it's new for me! It turned out better then expected! It's like my dream room as a teenager! They brought some other things that I needed like my pink garbage bin and my stereo with a lp player. Well that's all for now got nothing else to say at the moment! Here is the pic!

 

I hate everything.

Three days, in three days I'll be turning 21.

Even though I'm turning 21 I still feel like I'm 16. Although I did som test like, what's your mental age?!

Two out of three said I was over 30... 

That's where I did something else, like play videogames, check everything for my trip to Uppsala/Stockholm tomorrow, study, anime, anime and youtube. Yes I did write anime twice. It was on purpose. I did go out today though, had to send some letters. Well it's late and I got school tomorrow. I'll probably (maybe) write when I get home. 

Good night // RebellionStar

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

These feelings! I can't concentrate on anything. I'm stressed, nervous, excited and happy. Don't know what to do with myself. I just wanna run for miles untill I pass out... Sound like a good idea...

// Rebellionstar

 

Fall is finally around, for real! And it's raining, feel almost like beeing in love. Was that thunder?! Okay feels like beeing in love. With days like this I might just go and buy a scented candle for 179kr. It smelled so good! I almost did not want to leave the store. It made me crazy I wanted to act like a child and scream on the ground. Pumkin spice. Makes me shaky just to think about. I think I'm in love with it... Lovely!

Cherry in the air... That perfume is something I'm in love with as well. Want it, need it, must have it.

Well I'm off to bed now. I just needed to write something, I'm giving in to my urges now a days ;) 

Sweet dreams // Rebellionstar

I've been sick for almost a month, lovely. And I've been doing everything you are not suppose to be doing while beeing sick. Like, going out, not sleeping, not eating properly(or healthy). Way to go Alex!

Wanted to write something, but I forgot what. So I'll just write things I need(want). I mean it's my birthday soon and I''ll be wishing me some nice stuff. 

1.  New computer. (Need it not want it. Mine is dying...)
2. Compact camera (just want it)
3. Money (need it)
4. Shoppingday (want it/need it)
5. Giftcard at Sephora (want it)
6. Giftcard at The body shop (want it)
7. Tv (want it)
8. Pretty fan (solfjäder) (collecting it)
9. Scented candles (want it)
10. Nailpolish (want it)
11. Lovely postcards (collecting it)
12. Cute posters (collecting it)
13. New pair of jeans (need it, need it, need it, need it)

It's soon my birthday!! I'm hoping to be in Lund for my birthday but I might be in Uppsala. But I can just celebrate the weekend after. Or like make a week of celebrations! I would love that. 

Probably not going to happen though. Gonna sleep now so I can get up on time for school. 

Sweet Dreams // RebellionStar

This weekend... WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! I spraind my left thumb and now I feel like a monky everytime I try to grab something. I hurt my knees as well, I thought that the whole situation was fun but my friend not so much :D. But I mean I have not injured myself for so long that it was kind of refreshing to be honest. 

 

It was a good week and weekend. Now I have to catch up with my life ;)

Love // RebellionStar

And my heart skipped a beat. 

 

So it's almost half past eleven and I'm still awake and not tierd. Even though I did not fall asleep until five in the morning last night. I walked a lot today, a lot. I think I walked on totall for three hours. That more than I sleept...  Is that not kind of sad? Today my mom talked to my old design teacher and asked if I'm going to Japan yet. Made we go on a spree of looking for opportunitys to go to Japan. I really wanna go, even just for a week. I actually don't want anything else to be honest. Sure I say I wanna go to London as well but that only cuz I know it's so much cheaper. I say I want a new computer but I actually need a new computer. Well I do want one but I need one as well. I mean I would not be saving money for it otherwise. Actually feeling tierd now, good night rosebuds

// ♥Rebellionstar

Just read my sisters blog. It really leaves a heavy feeling on my chest. I miss her a lot. It made me so sad, I want to call her but it's so late now. I'm feeling really uneasy now. Feels like her writing about her feelings is proof that Iäm not there enough for her or something. I don't know...

 

// Rebellionstar